Sunday, November 19, 2006

Change

It's been a while since I last posted. It started off with my hands being cranky from working the Pendleton wool, but it was other medical issues that have come up that I now have to deal with.

I'm glad I have choir this afternoon. I need hugs today. Physical hugs. The presence of friends. Knowing that I'm not alone. Sure there's the cyber community but the real physical presence of people who make a point of letting you know that they really care about you is so important to have. Most of the time I prefer to be left alone. I'm used to doing things without having to bring in another person into the picture. But when you're given news that changes how you handle your life's activities, it's very comforting to have the support of friends.

Fortunately, it's not the Big C. And it's not like I haven't been aware of this condition potentially arising. It's the fact that it has and that I have to be more aware of what I do and don't do. I have been diagnosed with diabetes. I don't require medication or insulin, but if I continue down the path I'm going I will. I have to monitor my glucose. I have to exercise. I have to change. And that's what is making me so angry and depressed. I don't want to change. But if I don't change, I will die sooner than I would if I reduced my weight and maintained my blood alcohol levels.

I am blessed with great friends. One is diabetic and was very encouraging when I talked with him Friday. I have a sister who is diabetic. She is very encouraging and supportive (I'm visiting her for Thanksgiving). I work at a health based company with many resources available. So I have support. It's getting past the depression that I've fallen in and preparing for making changes. I've started evaluating what I eat during the day and when. I'm working on my mindset on what food is. And I'm talking. I'm hoping that when I start taking my diabetic classes that there will be information on a support group to get me through this initial stage. They say that for habits to be formed you have to work at it for 3 to 4 months minimum. I have my work cut out for me.

Knitting

This weekend I returned to the Rogue sweater and knit up a felted hat for my friend Ruth. It took me three washings to felt it down (I have a 30-year old washer) but it finally got down to normal human head size. For a while I thought I had made a hat for a troll.

Last weekend I got to ride in NeedleGirl's London taxi. I promise there will be pictures. Not enough time to post them now. It was great fun running around Portland though a little disconcerting to have the driver on the right hand side of the car. I'm glad I wasn't riding up front.

5 comments:

Sharon Rose said...

I have diabetes too. Don't worry, as soon as you shed some weight the symptoms stop - at least they did for me. I'm behind you all the way!

It was great fun seeing you and I'm looking forward to spinning that gorgeous icy-blue roving. Unfortunately we are selling Wallace (the taxi), so next time I'll give you a ride in Wendolene.

M-H said...

I'm sure you know, but... it's not only the dying earlier, it's the disability it can cause. The repeated infections and the problems with your kidneys and eyesight and worse.

You can do this - you're lucky that you've found it out now and that you have all the help you need to make the changes so that you're in control.

DianeInChico said...

You can do it, Duffy.

I'll be sending encouragement and support your way.

Love....

Anonymous said...

blood alcohol levels? is that a freudian slip?

JoVE said...

Your reaction to this diagnosis sounds perfectly normal. But I'm sure you'll manage the change okay. A friend of mine is 80 pounds into losing 100 pounds because of serious hypertension (his blood pressure was so high 80% of people would have a stroke at that level) and his lifestyle change includes stopping drinking alcohol which was a big part of his social life. At this point, he looks great and is really positive about the change. But at the beginning, it seemed like a big shift.

If they don't offer you groups for support through this stage and you think a group would help, ask. Pester. Get the support you need to live a good life.

My word verification is HVAGOBUD which seems like a bit of a cheer.